...Thoughts...

Monday, March 23, 2009

` 12:02 AM

i dunno why and i dunno how but the more i tink about it the scarier it gets.

Is it out of my own mind of prejudice that i am placing a judgment on you even before hearing you out?

Or is it the truth that is so hard to accept that i am distancing myself right now?

Either i am informed about it, or i don ever want to found out.

please.

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

` 12:23 AM

nice :)

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

` 11:44 PM

What is a faithful servant?

A faithful servant is:

At the age of 70 odd, he still

spend a day spreading love and the gospel to the handicapped on a weekly basis
left his previous appointment early even if it meant alot to him and be early for God
put on his best attire for Godeven if its just a normal event
took a cab to reach early and not just be on time
give all his strength to carry chairs, even if its 2 at a time
share his experience not to boost but to state those in need really need help
stand at his position as instructed and never left or sit down even if there is no need to stand
put on a smile at all times for Him
care for others at his own expense
willing to listen to orders given by people much younger and much inexperience
give words of encouragement and love
show appreciation when most people don't at the smallest issue
being simple
having faith

I saw all this in just one man. I call them the silent worker.

Would i be able to call myself the faithful servant at the end of my road?

I guess it would have to start with being a servant.

Thank you Uncle for showing me what i ought to be.

You are much appreciated.

Thank you.

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

` 12:49 AM

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness.
Opened my eyes, let me see.
Beauty that made this heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You

Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days
oh, so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came
To the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor

Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
I'll never know how much it cost

Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me

I'll never know how much it cost
to see my sins upon that cross--

If i could and i would, sing with my heart out to the one and only God that never cease to make me be awe at how much it cost to see my sins upon that cross.

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Thursday, March 05, 2009

` 8:07 PM

AS we walked through life, there are alot of things that we want even when we already have.

When you drive a lancer, you want a Golf GTi
When you have a Zen Vision M, you want a Ipod touch
When you have Samsung, you want a better Samsung
When you have a 5 room flat, you want a condo
When you have a 32 inch LCD tv, you want a 40 inch HD tv
When you have a Renoma wallet, you want a braun buffel
When you have a Nalgene bottle, you want a Nike bottle
When you have Thinkpad X60, you want a Macbook Pro
When you have a Guess sweater, you want a Ted Baker sweater
When you have $3.50 steak, you want a Lawry's meal
When you have Diesel watch, you want a Tag Heuer
When you have a Canon Ixus 5, you want a Canon Ixus 950
When you have Timbaku bag, you want a Crumbler
When you have an Ikea table, you want a Minnoti desk
When you have a 60cents Kopi O, you want a Spinelli's today's brew
When you have home baked cookies, you want subway cookies
When you have home made breakfast, you want Mac's
When you have black hair, you want to dye them yellow
When you have friends, you want to be alone
When you are alone, you want to have friends
When you have 80cents Dily's curry puff, you want Old Chang Kee Curry puff
When you have 50 dollars in your wallet, you want 100
When you have happiness, you want fulfillment
When you have warmth, you want satisfaction
When you have one, you want another.

There are plenty of wants. But along with it, there are plenty of haves as well.

Is it wrong to want when you already have? Or is it wrong to have and still want more?

How do we really reconcile all these in life? When you have, yet when you see something DEEMED as better, you want the other one.

Do we ever realise that to want, at the end, is to have, and to have, is to want more?

Even as we realise the want and have, there are some things that we have and we cannot want more.

We have hatred.
We have jealousy.
We have anger.
We have disappointment.
We have thirst.
We have frustration.
We have tiredness.
We have illness.
We have wrongs.
We have sins.

Do you want more of them?

Because if you do, they are already yours to grab without any cost.

Don't we human realise that better doesn't mean suitable?

If you want better parents, you mean they are more suitable?
If you want better siblings, you mean they are more care-able?
If you want better girlfriend/boyfriend, you mean they are more lovable?
If you want better friends, you mean they are more acceptable?

Suitable doesn't mean better.

There is no ways to the means of comparison, just like there is no means to the ways of comparison. In the end, what's yours is your. What is not yours, is not suitable for you.

Be glad that others have what you want, because its suits them.
Be glad that others want what you have, because they have what suits them as well.
Be glad that you have, because otherwise, you haven't.

Let it go, sit back, and watch the world goes round.

Because what you have today, might be gone tomorrow.

There's when you ask yourself,

am i glad that i at least have it?

or

if only.

mr jen can only look up, understand what it takes, accept the truth in life, yet still wallow in his own sorrows whenhe knows that it is just chasing the wind, ends up in nothing. absolutely nothing.

~Mr Jen has spoken.