...Thoughts...

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

` 9:59 AM

Alright i am back...back from HK and back at work...

rotting in my little desk on this little island part of this little country doing little things...shucks...

haiz...anw..the hk trip was good i would say..the camp was not really a totally rejuvenating one where u get enlightened in life mystery and see the light shining once again..but i do start to see the light now...beam by beam..

Title : Sui Zhou Sui Chuan aka Preach As You Walk

Filled with a number of activities like a solo night on top of a mountain, visiting and cleaning apartments of elderly, visitin g other churches, talks, sharing...Its a different experience when u get to be around with other bro & sis in Christ from taiwan, malaysia and hongkong..talking different language but sharing common faith..

I tink the camp seriously remind me of the need to do my part as a christian...to spread the gospel...but i think the most important message i got was the same as those that i received in spore n have been evading it...

"Seek First Ya Kingdom, and all shall be added onto you."

Wah sounds big hor..ya its indeed big...something i am still struggling to come to terms with...it takes a lot of faith, alot of understanding and letting go...

ok i am learning.....

also went shopping for 1/2 a day after the camp..bought like 13pairs of socks n 1 jeans n alot of laopo biscuits(eat one not jus for laopo one!!) and a bag...spent all my money( act its bros n dad) and eat alot of stuff...including sea snails raw....shucks..i was conned to eat it by my HK fren...ha..taste good anw...and i also ate the stinky tofu....STINKS

Stayed on this tall hostel on top on the mountain and gosh..HK government really know how to use space efficently..building a university on a mountain and the hostel is on top while the canteen is below...so u understand?plus i lived on the 5th storey n the lift was not working...Shucks!

Anw i tink my group ppl v nice...let me recall their names..
Cherrydinne,
Do,
Zoe,
Andrew,
Jacky,
Stephanie,
Lily
Thanks guys for all your encouragement and sharing!

Ya i am at work now..dozing off....And

SHUCKS!

Spain is out!

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

` 7:04 AM

Away in HongKong 21/06/2006 - 26/06/2006....

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

` 11:19 PM

Up till today i still find it hard to come to grasp with the reality after 2 long years of waiting. I hate the fact that the door was open for me only for a glance. Ppl tell me not to tink so narrowly and that it might be a good thing for me to stay. i aint complaining that things here are worse nor am i not the least interested. In fact, i am eager for the new phase and the new life. Yet i cannot let it go.

Why do YOU have to give me the hope of having it only to take it all away?

Why do YOU have to show me that i can only to tell me i am not enough?

i know that there are certain things which is beyond my understanding and all that YOU have done is for my good. Yet i am unable to come to terms with it that it is indeed for my good. I am sorry.

I need time to sort it out before i can move on. I heard nothing.

Perhaps this trip to HK will help me i hope. I am not expecting anything.

Now i finally know what they mean by pride is something you need to remove for humility to set in.

And i am still stuck in the first stage.

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

` 9:53 AM

yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay

*still feeling bitter though.....

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Sunday, June 04, 2006

` 11:44 PM

i am lazy lethargic and irritatable.......sucky sembcorp so many things to do when i haven even take any money or legally bind to them...argh....and i don have nsf pay anymore......arghh......gonna start work tomolo...where?...@Sentosa...the most beautiful island in the island of singapore...wow...so wonderful that singapore is full of islands right?....see...the irritable me......anyone wants free entry car label to sentosa?i can steal some??...anyway i am getting fatter and fatter....more like an uncle...whah...so nice that 2 person told me this while i was waiting for my ELDER brother who is playing soccer:

A : Hey why are you sitting here?
ME:Orh..waiting for my brother..
A:ur brother?
ME:yeah that one over there?(pointing)
A:orh..so nice lei u wait for ur younger brother....don hav such nice OLDER brother le..
ME:.....

3 min later

B:Wait for ppl ar?
ME:ya..
B: how come u nv play?
ME:sick lor..
B: sick still come fetch ppl..nice lei u UNCLE!
ME: ...............

Am i that old?...

...........

~Mr Jen has spoken.