Friday, September 30, 2005
` 1:14 AM
it felt so weird that the much anticipated call nv came..feel so alone at office..at lunch...at work...wanted so much to call yet scared of the tone of a disconnected phone..
then it came while i was in a midst of nodding off..
Elated...hearing your voice was the one and only reason i could make it through the day..
hope everything is going fine over there..its gonna be cold so put on more clothes...i am doing fine...at least things r normal now...1 day down...
i am counting...:)
~Mr Jen has spoken.
Thursday, September 29, 2005
` 1:04 AM
i managed to do it...to hold back till u went out of sight...till everyone was gone...till no one was left behind...
it started to roll down...slowly bit by bit...like a stream flowing gracefully to the edge of the chin and fall on to the unknowing ground...then it became violent and uncontrollable...breathing became panting as though grasping for air...i din not want to stop...not because i cant..but because i know its the only way i can release the pain inside me....
i waited for you call but it didn't came....
remotely disappointed...but i know time wasn't on our side...
All i hope for now if u to look forward and be strong...i did...at least i am strong in the face of everyone...perhaps not to myself...remember the sense of togetherness....
and you know....
i only love you....
~Mr Jen has spoken.
Monday, September 26, 2005
` 12:24 AM
seems so long since i last entry...which is the day i left for phuket for holiday...and now its the end of sept....so fast...i din wan it to come so fast...yet it did....
so many things happened in jus one month...so many diferent stories occurs...though i do feel glad that things went my way most of the time and to see that smile on your face......
i don wan it to come...
yet..
~Mr Jen has spoken.