Sunday, August 19, 2007
` 12:21 AM
Ivan told me that day that he felt that i have changed.
I was sighing.Telling him that IF only i bidded my module with more points i could have get it at the previous round and i don need to wait and wait to bid again.
Ivan says the old jianen from AJC never says IF ONLY.
I guess he was trying to tell me the old jianen was much more spirited, less emo, always persevere and determine in what ever he does.
Is that what they call DRIVE?
I tink i did change.
What Ivan says was right. I needa wake up and start doing what i should and i need to do.
But about shutting down my blog?..erm...sorry pal..if i shut down Mr Jen, you wouldn't much other emo blog to read:)
Well..If only i never started :p
~Mr Jen has spoken.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
` 10:18 PM
Someday i wish i could just go away from here. Where no one knows me and i can start again.
Will that day ever come?
I want to be hidden where i can bring no more shame to the people around me.
Where can i hide?
Where can i run?
I cant even slp in peace nowadays.
Is there more to come?If yes, i pray that i can and will be able to endure through.
I hope.
~Mr Jen has spoken.
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
` 1:10 AM
Its funny how He works. He allow some to be taken away while some to be given. He allow some to be done while some to be unfinished. He allow some to be successful while some to fail miserably.
I realised and understand it all now.
Its all His to plan and give. Not mine.
So hard to do yet so true.
Open mind ivan says. Well open is relative too isn't it?:)
~Mr Jen has spoken.