Tuesday, February 13, 2007
` 12:31 AM
The problem with Mr Jen is...when he is alone at night listening to songs he should not be...he becomes emo...he starts to think about events of the day...wondering about the what if...questioning the what would be....
then he feels tired...and he dread....then he tear in despair..longing for some sympathy...
None came.
because he ignore the most obvious hand of comfort from above...he wish for something more concrete..more visible..more practical..
but what was given to him was more than enough..yet he struggle and ask
'why?why now?why all at this point?why lift me up and let me fall down all again?'
'why show me the door yet not opening it?why put me through all these?'
There..He stood all the time...
"My grace is sufficient for you. I will not put you beyond what you can bear. What i have for you is for your good and all will be revealed to you. but its all in MY time my child. Not Yours. You came with nothing and will leave with nothing. All was for MY glory not YOURs.I am always here but you never speak to me. Like a father who knows how the son felt but all he wants is the son to say it out before he could comfort. Do not assume that all is known. If you do not speak my child, how can i reply you?if you do not look at me, how can you know i always look at you?if you do not know me, how would you know what i am doing?I never left, you did my child. Those who are last will be first, and those who are first will be last. Served and you will be serve. The great will be humbled, the humble will be make great. What matters is not the eyes of others, but of mine. My child, what do you fear when i am with you?who can be against you?Rely on the strength i give you, not on your own. No man is greater than i. I look after even the smallest creature, what more about you?My Love is still the same."
Mr Jen finally woke up.
He spoke to someone today...
"Do we know Him after being tested or we are tested because we know Him?"
"Everyone has his path, but not everyone has 10yrs to walk like i did"
Mr Jen realise that worry about things, being tired and wanting comfort is part and parcel of life. At the end of the day, Mr Jen needs to focus on what is ahead and not behind and know that what he has is not for himself, but for Him.
Nothing wrong with sulking. but sulk knowing that all these was for your good even when you cant see any good in it. Because if you know the good in it, then He will not be Him anymore, He is like us.
Then all these is like what was said-
Its all but chasing the wind.Empty, empty, empty.
He is the alpha and the omega.(don bother measuring how great is that,its beyond you and me)
~Mr Jen has spoken.