Wednesday, January 17, 2007
` 9:45 PM
I tink everytime i listen to Mayday's album alot of thoughts will go through my mind.
It makes me think.
Dear Song Jian'En
Examination - Semester 1, 2006/2007
I refer to your application for review of examination results.
The examiner has reviewed the script and this is to inform you that there is no change to your result for EG1109.
Thank You
Ivan Yew (Mr)
Its not pain i am experiencing amazingly.
Its not saddness.
Its anguish.
I could just go over and slap their face for taking 1 month to reply me in a nonchalent manner when other ppl have received their replies without needing to send in a mail to remind them that i paid $10 for this email they sent to me.
OR
I could slap myself in the face and curse that its my own bloody problem that i did not get the grades nor did i study hard enough.
Whatever and whoever and ever.
I am trying hard to look forward.Going for all lectures on time.Revising.Less play.Less slack.More conscientious.Early night.Daily Breakfast.Tutorials.
Does it help?
Grandma told me that day not to visit her or do physio with her so often because she heard of the news of 3 doctors who died in their slp, presumed to be from over exhaustion or watever.
She did not want me to over exhaust and die in my slp, simply saying.
Quite cute of her.
She did not want me to rush from school to her and to school and back to her again.
Mum and bro told me the same thing.
Aunt told me the same thing.
But doing physio and visiting her is NOT something "I WILL DO WHEN I AM FREE"
If it is so then probably me being me i wont do it.I want her to get well.
Imagine she is in the home 24/7 having not much ppl to talk to and her suffering.
Yes sometimes i am quite impatient with her and sometimes i am tired.
But i will rest when i am tired.
Come on man its me can?slp and me goes together.
But for her i don want to have a day telling myself if only i have i had or i could have.
Perhaps to other ppl its something they will do when they are free but i am sorry.
ya,Zeyi told me to cherish time with my grandma.
It doesn't matter who die first.
It matters only when u are alive.
Death is only a small part of life afterall.
~Mr Jen has spoken.