...Thoughts...

Sunday, May 28, 2006

` 2:51 AM

i start to feel that its the mind that is creating all sort of problems....

jus cant seems to know exactly what is it tinking about...

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

` 5:19 PM

i start to doubt myself.

Not my religion,my faith,my friends,my family.

Myself.

~Mr Jen has spoken.

` 12:29 AM

i hate the feeling of knowing that

i can go yet i cant..
i could have gone but i cant..
i was there yet i am not..

i know its something i have accepted yet i cant help but tink about it time and time..

i hate it i hate it i hate it..

it shouldn't have been in the first place.2 years of waiting.

in vain.

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Monday, May 22, 2006

` 12:02 AM

It takes 2 hands to clap.
It takes 2 hands to make a handshake.
It takes 2 hands to work together.
It takes 2 hands share.
It takes 2 hands to pray.

Just how much longer does it take for the 2 hands to tell each other that they care?

Another decade?

Another tragedy?

Another heart aching moment?

Another life?

Why is moving on so difficult for some when others don't take it as a thing?
Why is forgiving so hard for some when others don't even remember?
Why is accusing so easy when some rather be mum?
Why is denying so common when facing isn't a problem?

Sometimes i wish that i can take things into hand and control it.
I wish i can.
I hope i can.
I know i might be able to.

What is holding me back?

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

` 11:39 PM

Met up with ivan,fanglong,justinand weitien late last night for a drink...ha..was crapping throughout..and reminding ourselves of jc dayz...how FL would find excuse in telling ppl he got stitch when he cant run...how the teachers were...ha...long time ago man...pretty tired today in church...headache in the afternoon...but nonetheless..it was a fun night..jus talking...

take care fl on ur way to sea....and the rest of 18/02...looks like i am gonna organise something le...ha...now...time to slp..tomolo needa go back camp fpr promotion day!!!!!!...

Zzzzzzzzzz

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

` 5:12 PM

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

` 1:55 AM

I made an amazing discovery!!!!I found these photos while net surfing and it brought back many memories!!haha...nearly died laughing while browsing through them...how i wish to relive them again...ha....

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Remember the famous F4 of AJCO?haha...the first Shanghai trip in 2002...how long ago was that?And we did a 18 luo han in some ancient which we visited....never forget how zeyi and i gorged 30 xiaolongbao in like wat 15 minutes?haha.....so long ago.....
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Did i mention that it was in Shanghai that M starting going after KC?...haha...i was part of the team behind the conspiracy...whahaha...glad that they are still tog now:)...

Then as i proceed on i saw some photos of how we got appointed as AJCO exco of my batch...ha...alot of photos of the events i saw...but interesting are those that we took while we were cleaning up the room after that...yes..the EXCO clean up the room k?..see my dear daughter with the mop?haha...guess she is mopping her way in China now...whahaha...

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And we tried to remove somo tough stain on the floor....ha....all eye power only..

Oh also..while we were cleaning...there are some ppl who likes to see us do extra work..by eating in the room while we laboured....

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(*photos are in mosaic to protect the identity of the accused)

See the TWISTIES and PRINGLES in the hand!!!!

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And of course the photos with the seniors together with the '02 batch....
But the most prideful photo should be this..

SYF 2003...how many times must i repeat myself?..hee...i guess its a lifetime...

~Mr Jen has spoken.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

` 2:04 AM

i noe i should be slping now..but a sudden urge to blog.....i jus read this Christian book on Christian life...and i did something i wanted to do for a long time...i jus wrote down whatever things i have done wrong or bear grudges on a piece of paper and i burnt it...yes...BURNT....all was left was ashes..like the book says...if you refuse to let go of ur past and step a new life with God...you will never experience the richness and fulfillment of the blessings God has in ur life....

I want to take a step forward...yet sometimes i dread to..because i am too comfortable for where i am...
I want to take a step forward...yet i am scare of what is lying in front...

I jus realise that this is another lesson in life...not about faith anymore..its about living your faith everyday......

Too many thoughts now...

i am chaffeur for my brothers tomorrow morning...i need to slp.........

ZzzzzZZzzzzzZzzzzzZZzzzzz

~Mr Jen has spoken.