...Thoughts...

Monday, January 16, 2006

` 11:22 PM

day 5 passed and things are looking brighter now....she is sitting up and talking...prayer at times....though she still cant move her left side...that is...wat they call....stroke....no signs...no warning..no nothing..it jus came...at least its getting better now...

these days seems to start from the time i went to the hospital...1 to 5...its slow...i haven realised i went back to nuh for more than 10 times in 5 days...the route seems to be much more familiar than the one going home...every time i go..i am filled with anxiety and hope...thinking about the worst..hoping for the best....at least for now..the latter stands....

bro says its time to see whether the family is standing tog...whether we are still united as before...or did we ever?for the minimum i tink...our generation of cousins did...for the older generation..its not up to us....all we can do is listen...i wish sometimes it doesn't take a sad issue to bring people together...

i thank those who cared for me..thanks alot....thank those who came to visit her...thanks...especially those who make the effort to come and visit and exercise her..talk to her...sing to her...church pals....for all the support...i thank you who always support...i thank God for letting me know changes do happen...and when changes happen...its not for us to revert them...its for us to accept....to grow...to forgive...to sacrifice...to adapt... to understand...and to trust.........

because changes is not always favourable....it can cause pain...cause hurt...and cause resentment.....deep hatred and resentment......

but its the only way...that we can grow...grow closer to Him...

isn't it?

~Mr Jen has spoken.