Thursday, September 29, 2005
` 1:04 AM
i managed to do it...to hold back till u went out of sight...till everyone was gone...till no one was left behind...
it started to roll down...slowly bit by bit...like a stream flowing gracefully to the edge of the chin and fall on to the unknowing ground...then it became violent and uncontrollable...breathing became panting as though grasping for air...i din not want to stop...not because i cant..but because i know its the only way i can release the pain inside me....
i waited for you call but it didn't came....
remotely disappointed...but i know time wasn't on our side...
All i hope for now if u to look forward and be strong...i did...at least i am strong in the face of everyone...perhaps not to myself...remember the sense of togetherness....
and you know....
i only love you....
~Mr Jen has spoken.