...Thoughts...

Sunday, June 05, 2005

` 12:08 AM

After the first week into mortar course..i jus feel pissed...not mith the rest of the trainees...they are quite nice..not with staying in..can save on transport fee...not with the bunk..its quite big...but with the ppl in my office..yes my fellow colleagues and trainers...only one of them though in specific...its a commander course for goodness sake..as stated..IT IS MEANT FOR COMMANDERS..and you don treat commanders like the way u treat man...not when u show them show them little respect and try to twist ur words and tone so that it wont sound as though u r talking to man..not when u r given some reflections and u don take them into stride but treat ur trainees advice as a form of not respecting u and threaten them with actions...not when u r a LOWER RANK personnel...wake up!...phew...ok i cough it all out...i am jus trying to say out what i feel inside...but i will tolerate because i am a TRAINEE now...take it into stride..forgive others as others forgive u..love ur enemies...i am trying to do so....

a whole week of tiring mortar drills though i learnt quite alot of things...seems like the days get longer...but it jus make me tot of the training days back in ocs..when we still joke and laugh tog...but now..as an officer..its different..frens r fewer...in tough times..u have to strand alone...most of the time..wat to do...lead by example lo...

enough of army..had driving today..bad..went for alpha camp meeting..decided on certain issues..which is gd and progressive..then bought the army stuff..then went beauty world slack awhile and home...quite bored though..coz i am e lowest priority right?:p

this week is coming to an end le...another wk to come..time jus come and go...if only it can jus stop at a particular moment where the nicest things occur isn't it gd?

~Mr Jen has spoken.