...Thoughts...

Thursday, May 12, 2005

` 10:49 PM

A conversation i keep hearing for e last 3 days

"Mortar 2!Action front!Charge 4, Elevation xxxx xxxx!Ready!Fire!"

"Fire!"

BOMB!

"05 this is 51 SILVER first shot out. Over"

ok..it might be alien to the girls reading this..even to some guys...shall explain abit..its the command a mortar platoon commander will give when he wan his platoon to fire off the mortars to support the rest of the battalion in their assault on the enemies...if u still don understand this..skip this part..

Continues...

bloging proper...ok i was out in the field for the last 3 days to access one of the active unit in there exercise aka missions.Accessing their mortar platoon, coz i m supposedly specialized in mortar thoughi haven attend mortar course yet, and determining their state of readiness. Frankly speaking, if there is war now, i would not wan this platoon to protect me. They are not ready yet, but they are improving.i hope.

Nevertheless, i was able to learn alot of things about the mortar..the calculations,deployment and stuff related..all become more applicable than jus readin it up.not jus about mortar, also on how to manage junior sub commanders and man who has no motivation to carry out their drills. Cant blame them, man have their mentality too.Gain alot though i slp quite less,drink lots of coffee and coke..heh..maggie mee..and my ucleri s killing me..ouch..

Though learnt alot..it stuck me that wat i learn back at ocs..all those tekan sessions when we do drills again and again..do movement again and again..repeating similar missions...all these are of great use now..that i can actually see it when i become an instructor, a teacher. i start to realised how come i will get kick to push or knock it down when i don cover and conceal myself well when on battlefield...or i fall aslp when doing sentry..or not putting in effort to dig shell scrape..its all about surviving when e real things occurs..and it might jus occur...so real and scary..haiz..life..

3 days out in e field was fruitful..but missing someone isn't a good feeling:p...i have to learnt how to cope with it isn't it?:(i hope i can..

anw..when on my way back to camp sitting at the back of the jeep aka mv car...travelling at a speed of 50km/h...i dunno y but some thoughts of my life suddenly appear...and i start to see e bigger pictures of my life...the picture god would like me to see?i hope so..but i am thankful God has His plan for you...the door will be open to u if u are to go thru it..there is always a NO to request...but its not a YOU CANT MAKE IT...its jus a NO THIS ISN"T UR PATH...isn't it amazing?even when we were driving in the cemetry in pitch dark i feel so comforted...thank You...

okie thanx for all ya concern..my lab report is out...not cancerous..not infection..not parasite...its jus......

normal la....heh...thanx alot:)

glad to be back...getting a life...newly re-lease...

~Mr Jen has spoken.