...Thoughts...

Monday, May 23, 2005

` 12:56 AM

a scene kept flashing in my mind since the concert played its last song...it goes...

*tears rolling down her eyes as it turns watery*

"wo nan guo bu shi yin wei wo men shu le...er shi yin wei wo wei yao fei kai le..wo meng jiang gao bie..."

*there she turns and face away from the rest of us..sobbing behind..not letting us see the emotional side of her..*

"xie xie ni men de nu li he zhi chi..hen gao xing neng he ni men yi qi yan chu.........."

* the rest was history...*

the scene is so vivid in my mind though the exact words were not these but the meaning still applies...those were the words of the vice president of AJCO 2002-2003..after the long journey of gold and finals..her calm and cool character finally give way...u are remembered...

watching the ajco and band concert jus now..no doubt in my heart the best is still...i felt so home..to the feeling...when i closed my eyes listening to the co music..i imagine myself walking up the stairs..towards the co room...look inside..into the room..floor of wood...the hugh mirror..the storeroom...the chairs...old conductor table..the conductor stool i stole from chem lab 3..the stands..windows..it felt like a second home to me...a place where i spend so much of my time and effort..trying to hold everyone tog...now its jus a memory..a swt memory...i miss co...esp ajco 19th batch...i miss all of u..thank you so much for all that u have given me..to make me grow..make me strong..make me understand that i alone cant make it happen..

when i open my eyes to the new juniors...their standards..are so so high...i dunno about their bonding..but i noe our tradition is there..the sense of closeness and care we had for each other..its part of us..our instrument..and of course..our teacher and conductor..yellow...i felt comforted for what we have achieve and we will be achieving...its like babysitting a small kid and now watching it grow after teaching it to walk...he is running now..soon..he will sprint....good job juniors...good job...

enough of co..now back to my life...eat eat eat...had supper at the esplanade...the roadside hawker shifted there..so nice the hokkien mee...heh...so nice to eat with someone u love..so nice to jus be with the special person...isn' t it sorta...wonderfu?

my eyes are closing...i am tired...time to Zzzzzz...goodnight...

^3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers to AJCO..hip hip hurray hip hip hurray hip hip hurray!!^

~Mr Jen has spoken.