Saturday, January 01, 2005
` 3:09 AM
Finally back from 4 days of survival training in tekong...hardly survived the two days without food and the last day if 36km navigation..shack..was scolded by PC coz half the platoon was caught resting in the middle of the night for the navigation when they expected us to push through till the end point...but it was really our fault..didn't had any rest for nearly 20 hours and we were all exhausted plus my ankle really hurts alot..but i still pushed on till the end by God's grace..its darn painful now!!...nonetheless..its not the way future commanders are to behave..reflect...
Today is the last day of the year 2004..jus heard the neews that about 140000ppl have died from the tidal wave that hit indonesia all the way to india from xmas till now..its saddening...so many lives loss and the tol is expected to increase...suddenly the feeling of lonliness sets in..u wonder the suddeness of the situation and the impact it left..suddenly you jus feel the almightiness of God..ppl crying out to Him and asking why did it happen..but it jus occurs to me that a strong message is being sent across...He is in charge not just of u and me but the entire universe..Trust in Him..His wisdom is more than anyone can understand..easier said than done i know..but we must try..condolences to all who lost their love ones...
Yet another thing tat struck me is the way this disaster has brought the world together...ppl all around praying for strangers not for miracles that they know wont happen..but for the souls of these victims to be rested..i jus about to realised that such 'global' bonding occurs only previously in Sept 11th incident...must we take so many lives to make the world a loving and compassionate place again?Are we really tat engross in money,power,politics,fightings or even land that only such terrible disaster can stop everything and let us once again hold hand in hand again?...i guess its a wake up call for all of us..cherish everyone around you...its not easy to forgive others doings on you neither is it easy to take sorry for an apology for damaged done..but how long can we hold on to our grieves?generations after generations?If God is willing to sacrifice His son Jesus to die fo rus so that we can be forgiven from our sins why cant we sacrifice our pride?...something to ponder upon...life isn't tat simple afterall..
Last day of the year was like just another day to me in the army except for all the news...nonetheless..i am still thankful to be alive and well and training hard as a soldier for my country..still thankful for the friends i have and the new friends i made...thankful for everything...look into the past,not to cast shadows to the future,but to cherish the present...
~Mr Jen has spoken.