Thursday, December 02, 2004
` 3:27 PM
Today is my mum's birthday...sorta sad because i wont be with her for her birthday for the first time in my life...Happy Birthday mum..well...in 4 days time its big bro birthday...he is kinda old now..hehe...age is a secret..but Happy Birthday Bro too...coz by then i will be in the middle of my 5 days missions...so wont be in camp to call or wish you...:P
Today was to be kinda of slack but it wasn't the case..was forced to wake up at 6 to do stupid area cleaning coz one of the cadets dad..(supposedly a ambassador) is visiting taiwan and dropped by to visit us...in the end i never see him...SAF..Wayang!!..haiz..the rest of the day was actually doing ops order for ex Homerun and Finale..the given orders was full of error and we have to change n change coz of the cock up at HQ...haiz...tired...learnt one thing today...don rely on others...its better to always to count on urself before asking others..though its not exactly good but sometimes..relying on others might be the killer for urself..or perhaps its jus the ppl ard me that i shld not rely on?..perhapz so...feel kinda of low morale since i joined plt 3 from plt 1...used to think that plt 1 is xiong n the pc is unreasonable...but now...i missed Lt Alvin's jokes and sarcastic remarks..at least he cared for us...now Lt Terence though knowledgeable but his relations with cadets is totally...haiz....furthermore now at plt 3..i just cant perform..as in i cannot give my best..is it coz there r many best ard that i m the lowest or jus tat i m no good?the more i m in this plt..the more i feel tat i cannot make it as an officer..envy or low self esteem i don know..it jus seems i cant get into the plt circle...its kinda of harder...feel like getting myself out of course sometimes...i prayed about it..but it seems like the same..or is it i m being impatience?God has His own time though...perhaps its a trial..i will live with it n try to over come i guess...if i can...
enough of complaining...taiwan is cold...getting used to it here now though the air is very dry..my lips r cracking...other than that its still fine...woke up this morning realised its dec and mum n bro birthday..i miss home...14 days to go...i will survived..was singing christmas carol just now in the canteen...haz...by the time i m back its christmas...so fast...well...time flies don they?...hope its does for me now...:)..Shen ri kuai le mi mi and la da!
~Mr Jen has spoken.