Monday, November 15, 2004
` 10:23 PM
today is really a demoralising day...first it was a public hol n i m in camp for live firing...then alot of things went wrong..i was firing my mortar n i went to adjust the settings the wrong way till i totally miss the target yet i dare not admit i did the adjustment...cant i just have abit of moral courage to say i m wrong?what's the matter with me??...then the stores was also wrong n i din check them the night before...having a severe headache now...i never doubt myself as a person before so much..not to even say i doubt myself as a christian now...is this the real me?
~Mr Jen has spoken.